Saturday, September 24, 2016

Cancer sceps and their vics

My guides won't like this piece because it's a mean one but ... I think I hurt some scep feelings by speculating that the underlying miasm for both them and their victims might be cancer.

It wasn't intentional - my blog's not for reading, just my  processing. I only posted the address on twitter to take the wind out of the Martian's sleuthing sails.

There's cancer in every home and I'm not looking to attach blame. If anything it might be related to the solar cycle and cosmic rays. For all I know.

But the outrage my posts created reminded me of a crazy time on IRC. Farrah Fawcett had just died of colon cancer and Ryan o'Neil was acting all bereaved and fake. I was on the scep science chan and a number of doms were on their high horse about her decision to quit chemo (after it went from stage 1 to 3 on chemo) and use naturopathy in the end. How alt med killed her, blah blah.

One unwary, innocent voice piped in with the obvious: that colon cancer is usually related to meat consumption and/or anal sex and Ryan was known to be a backdoor man.

There was a 5 min flabbergasted silence before the room exploded into action and word. The poor truthteller was kicked out, banned, and all kinds of scientific studies pulled out to prove colon cancer couldn't be connected to the anal sex that they all loved so much! Lol, men! No, it had to be the alt med that killed her obviously - just one more session of chemo could have had her fit as a fiddle and back in service of Man. (At least, one man who was just like them.:)

No one likes to think they contribute to the health problem of those around them, sceps least of all. Their denial is complete in every area of thought. But we all know how we can exhaust someone by talking her down, weaken a child with terror, drive people insane with revenge or office  politics. We all know how to cut people down to size - cancer size, that is.

In homeopathy, both diabetes and tuberculosis have to be present in the family history for cancer to develop according to Kent. It's a secondary combination of the weakness of tuberculosis (victims) and the excesses of diabetes (aggressors). It usually plays out in the children and their children's children, a second gen disease. You can see it happening as they grow up, how one dominates and takes more than his share, the other tries to give as much as she can.

And the victim isn't blameless either - they're drawn to the aggressors like iron filings to magnets (sometimes in the same proportion - comon, it's Ryan o'Neil!:). In a relationship it's the victim's place to call a halt when the s&m//dom/sub games go from a hot turn-on to painful resignation to actual physical damage and scar tissue. How's the dom to know when he's having the time of his life, pigging out!:p

The same is true with any normal narc-scep+vic relationship: if the victim feels tired and exhausted all the time it's really up to her to run, even crawl away, before a chronic and fatal drain. Don't make excuses for him, or be hoovered, or stay for the kids, because you're broke, have no will power ... just leave!

Actually run before! When they groom you, the first time they show contempt, nag you, strip you of self-respect, tell you that you hurt their feelings to shut you up. If not then, there's still time to break with your faithless liar during the rollercoaster of feeling excited sexiness to the gut-wrenching doldrums of fear for your sanity, ignored, uncertain and alone.

In fact I'll give both vics and sceps a simple way to tell: the first time you have a tummy upset after an argument, break up.

Say bye and save yourselves from the arrogant Prince Charmings, those knights in fake armor, you love to hate, you sooty, selfless, pitiful Cinderellas! No cancer miasm can raise its hydra head then for either.

(I'm putting in a little victim blame here to pacify some energy-vampires - you sceps were not the only cause!;)


"I’d lose some of the savagery. I don’t know how she got cancer; maybe some of it was me." - Ryan O'Neil, after her death. (1)

1. http://www.vanityfair.com/culture/2009/09/farrah-fawcett200909


Raja & Rani

The two gutter kittens of last week are now named. Merc cyan 10m probably saved the little Rani, uranium nit 12 did nicely for the inflammation around the eyes. But she had a terrible inflammation of the alimentary canal for 3 days from the Merc - just an aggravation I hope, not worsening.

They went from milk and curd to meat and fish rapidly because the girl stopped taking the bottle and would choke in it. (I was afraid of the pneumonia that kills force fed kittens.)

They ate too much like all fip kittens do. So for every new learning (licking, lapping, still no suckling but she's learnt to lave) her gut would inflame.

This time the guides stepped in and asked me to starve them. Instead of 4 hour feeds, I left them milk+curd and a bowl of water and didn't go back to see them for 12 hours today and only once in 8 hours yesterday.

If she survives, this might be the way forward. Even if they transition to solids, to return them to starvation/fasting until the body makes the necessary adjustment. Solids only once in 12 hours and very little.

Raja is blooming but he's fip too. His nervous system is crap and has shivering, periodic terrors. Crotalus 30 keeps his infected blood from poisoning him (and me - just a casual scratch would get itchy and infected).


Found the name of my bitter weed!

I asked a friend who's a whiz with plants and it's phyllanthus niruri. Ground with curd for jaundice, she said.

I think I'll go the decoction route since the guides think it's so awesome.

"Keelanelli is a major component of many popular liver tonics including Liv.-52."[1] Haha! Money saved!

Metabolic, liver, kidney, eyes [2]

Pity it isn't there in potency. [3]

But it's good for viral, bacterial, hepatitis, HIV to cancer -  seems to take care of everything. [4]

1. http://tamilnadu.com/health/phyllanthus-niruri.html

2. http://www.pinkandpink.com/2016/02/keezhanelli-keelanelli-medicinal-uses-health-benefits-bhumyamalaki.html?m=1

3.
http://drsrevathi.blogspot.in/2013/08/herbal-and-homeopathic-remedy-for-liver.html?m=1

4. http://hubpages.com/health/Medicinal-uses-of-Kizhar-Nelli


No courage

Ok my courage broke on seeing the white fungus. I mixed bitters in rice and had two mouthfuls, but I could only see long tentacles of hyphae deep in the food in my imagination.:)

I'll chuck it tomorrow. For sure.


Ah ha! Body acidity can be determined by ph!

So everyone uses ph strips on urine and saliva to check for a changing ph. http://www.livestrong.com/article/259786-how-to-increase-body-acidity/ <---these sceps were lying all the time!!


Friday, September 23, 2016

My bitters

Ok, it's 12, 13 days now since I made the weedy massoppu and there are 3 small patches of very white fungus! I still ate it this afternoon though (do not worry, I spooned off the white fungi!;). No change in taste and so cool around the throat and mouth!

But I'll keep it in mind that my energy saved from cooking lasts only two weeks. Got to cook twice a month at least (if I eat only this the rest of my life). Bummer.;)

Maybe this coolness is called 'Alkalinity' in this alkaline movement?

First I didn't know how hot my mouth to stomach region always is. I should have known, being a smoker and phlegm plaguing my bronchial tubes, not to mention loss of voice and burning in the oesophagus and diaphragm from eating wrong, acid risings after coffee, rotis, white bread, etc.

Kali iod made it prickle and tingle but not cold.

This bitter weed goes from chill to mild tingle cold, almost the opposite of an allergic reaction. The cold spreads to the lips and then there's a bated breath moment when it hits the tonsils (I'm terrified of the tonsils, our first line of immune defense! Very bad-tempered, grouchy gland that!:). The tonsils take about a half hour to make up their minds that it's not a terrorist threat, after which the coolness goes all the way to the bottom of the oesophagus after which I lose track of the hot/cold sensation.

It might be a coincidence but alkaline water (lime+pink salt overnight) does the cooling but so much milder.

This cold must be 'alkalinity' because is the opposite of the heat, prickle, burn of inflammation. Can we get inflamed when our tissues don't get hot? I don't think so... or maybe alkalinity is the effect on the tonsils? Over time it may make them more discriminating, prevent overreaction, & auto immune confusion.

I've been asking the guides how I'd make this for the animals. It will take them and me a few days to understand each other. (you always get the feeling that they sigh like they're talking to a retard or senile:)

So far they say I've got to use the root as well (I'd cut out and chucked the root and stem), boil the whole thing with other greens (tincture?) and keep it a few days (to ferment?) and spray it on the cooled food. So the leaves are basically just  material to ferment, not for fibre. It must be just the bitter water ferment that's good.


Another scep mechanism

Thanks to my idiot guides I found a new mechanism in the scep arsenal of energy hijack.

My guides, maybe all guides, can lead a moron into great trouble if one doesn't put the brakes on. I mean, look at what happened to Socrates and Jesus! I've told them repeatedly that I lack messiah-like qualities (esp guts, courage and certainty which I feel are essential;) so to concentrate on showing me how to save animals exclusively. After all, animals are to be saved from humans, I can't be saving the bad guys at the very same time as the good victims?! No logic. lol

This mechanism is called Grooming in narc psych language. All week I ignored the 'I'm so perfect' statements.

There's actually little one can say when someone says that beyond 'good'. I hear,"I'm such a good cook, my husband and kids are so healthy" from a diabetic and my knees go weak, my eyes glaze over and I say 'good' before I run. That lady has so far to go and I'm not Atlas. She's never going to go vegan in the next 10 lifetimes. Sorry, K, I love your good heart but I can't save your family's  islets!

Or maybe this is what they wanted to show me, these guides. A scep offering to help when I offered advice - say what? Hurt feelings over nothing much when it's really a hurt ego over not being held in high regard. Control in a different, confusing, manipulative way.

I'll admit to not being very attentive - my gut could be yelling and I ignore it until my stomach literally churns with warning.:)

There's a mantle of past successes at manipulation that is impossible to dent in these Teflon sceps. Everything hits that shield and reverses - is a comic book super-power, I tell you!

We work so hard to build the same shield with Reiki and a puff of ill will can knock it down sometimes. It's frustrating and deflating to see how little healers achieve for all the time and effort we expend. "Omg, what happened to the nice pyramid protection I gave you an hour ago? it's all gone, what did you do?" "oh, it made me feel so good I waved to my neighbor and she ignored me" Deflategate.

But this little piggy builds the strongest of them all with simple, classic duckback smoothness. Sceps have human energy transfer down to an art of surgical precision.;/


Another scep mechanism

Thanks to my idiot guides I found a new mechanism in the scep arsenal of energy hijack.

My guides, maybe all guides, can lead a moron into great trouble if one doesn't put the brakes on. I mean, look at what happened to Socrates and Jesus! I've told them repeatedly that I lack messiah-like qualities (esp guts, courage and certainty which I feel are essential;) so to concentrate on showing me how to save animals exclusively. After all, animals are to be saved from humans, I can't be saving the bad guys at the very same time as the good victims?! No logic. lol

This mechanism is called Grooming in narc psych language. All week I ignored the 'I'm so perfect' statements.

There's actually little one can say when someone says that beyond 'good'. I hear,"I'm such a good cook, my husband and kids are so healthy" from a diabetic and my knees go weak, my eyes glaze over and I say 'good' before I run. That lady has so far to go and I'm not Atlas. She's never going to go vegan in the next 10 lifetimes. Sorry, K, I love your good heart but I can't save your family's  islets!

Or maybe this is what they wanted to show me, these guides. A scep offering to help when I offered advice - say what? Hurt feelings over nothing much when it's really a hurt ego over not being held in high regard. Control in a different, confusing, manipulative way.

I'll admit to not being very attentive - my gut could be yelling and I ignore it until my stomach literally churns with warning.:)

There's a mantle of past successes at manipulation that is impossible to dent in these Teflon sceps. Everything hits that shield and reverses - is a comic book super-power, I tell you!

We work so hard to build the same shield with Reiki and a puff of ill will can knock it down sometimes. It's frustrating and deflating to see how little healers achieve for all the time and effort we expend. "Omg, what happened to the nice pyramid protection I gave you an hour ago? it's all gone, what did you do?" "oh, it made me feel so good I waved to my neighbor and she ignored me" Deflategate.

But this little piggy builds the strongest of them all with simple, classic duckback smoothness. Sceps have human energy transfer down to an art of surgical precision.;/


International peace day

A friend and I did a 5 min equinox meditation today to join the wave around the world. She's all into equinoxes and solstices, my guides were as usual excited to heal the planet, I love world movements I can join.

I gathered as many guides as I could and asked for peace for exploited animals (humans too penned & exploited by war). That no human can profit from their suffering as food, clothing, entertainment or ornament.

It was surprisingly powerful, my forehead chakra hummed and I could feel the draw from it.

I've never felt that before - so is that how intentions ought to  feel?!!:) Wow!

I'd given up on intention Reiki and healing because it really was a 'garbage in garbage out' thing. If my underlying intention was to show off, my stated intention would just get that little bit of twist that would make it a mixed blessing (like R losing his job when the intention was a raise; getting the raise at the next job after a hellish month without a proper work permit!); if my intention was from pity, most likely no effect; worry, worsens; greed, opposite effect (as in the case above). So very erratic and humbling.

This on the other hand felt like I was running along with a million souls for a good cause.


Unofficial blog name

I think I should change this blog's name to "Whatever the guides are into today and complaining about scep twits" because my guides aren't into homeopathy or reiki directly anymore. If i do their prana breathing, they point out a remedy or two. The Reiki 1  channel is about all they seem to use in healing in conjunction with the prana. No symbols (except the two masters attunement ones). They're not even into Bach flower remedies!

Strange healers, more than that, because they love twitter and sceps. Over the last week I've asked them many times if we shouldn't get off twitter since I'm off sceps, but they're like junkies, quite drunk on twitter feed.

Don't know what to do with them.


Thursday, September 22, 2016

Cancer - metabolic stuff

This is probably why banerji protocol can affect it! Mtdna at work!
http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2016/08/07/cancer-metabolic-disease.aspx?utm_source=twitter.com&utm_medium=referral&utm_content=twittermercola_ranart&utm_campaign=20160905_cancer-metabolic-disease


Calc phos

They're drawing Calc phos now during kp5.   Icy's getting small shocks through his body that are painful and electrical. I get those too as does Kenchu.

Some kind of oxidative stress that's wearing on the nerves. I remember Oldiefattipuppy, Laxmi etc getting the same.

Atmospheric? How can this be healed!:/


Healing Catabolic carbonate processes

I'm looking into two parts of the process:
* (prana) breath as one part of the catabolic carbon process through lungs
* alkalinity through liver and digestion (pancreas, some kidney?) for the bicarbonate part.


My guides, amazing chefs.:)

My dear annoying guides have a way of poking their noses in every area of my life. For 3 days until yesterday's storm they kept me on a rising high chatting. "It's ok! Very good! Nothing to worry about!! Tell them! Speak your mind!"

Very rapid downer after, I tell you. They seem to think the world awaits my explanation of right and wrong, and all people will be transformed, change and become good on contact with my amazing self. Naive and trusting creatures, guides - twitterati are hardboiled, sick, contemptuous and hate me - shouldn't the guides know this?! My gut is still recovering from that drop.:)

Anyway, about 2-3 months ago they wanted me to give up onion and garlic. Fine, i did it, grudgingly, but stopped buying the stuff. Later skygirl posted that onion and garlic divides/cleaves the brain in two, so I felt better about my sacrifice eventually.:)

About 1 month ago, they wanted me to stop buying veggies. Unreasonable as always! I still buy tomato & chillies (who can live without those?? They say I can, but I have grave doubts!:p), but I stopped the onion and garlic to keep the peace, now veggies, done.

About 2 weeks ago, when I felt I'd die of nutrient starvation on just grains (which they ALSO want me to stop btw, mad creatures!), and by chance about the time I also figured out how to make ragi mudde soft and yum, they said they'd help me pick out veggies again.

I'd been sneaking yum junk foods off the street because I'd been feeling so deprived all these weeks, but one can only do that for so long! I was happy to shop veggies again.:)

There's only so much starvation I can take being a foodie of the worst kind (I'd taken to eating Singapore cherries for meals from desperation for variety, fhs).

So I suggested every fabulous vegetable vendor I knew (starting from the cheapest, I'm a cheapie), visualized every vegetable & fruit I know available there -- but *no* to everything! So it had to be from my veg garden, which is overrun with greens on vines & not at all exciting to my exotic palate, unless starving, when there are so many more colourful veggies like carrots and cabbage and beans.,(

But ok. I pointed to purple basale (I need to look it up for it's botanical name, but it's a kind of mucilaginous spinach vine), they said good; basil, good; tulsi, good; and then insistently pointed out a common, local weed that I never know what to do with (don't want to kill, not sure it should grow).

They wanted me to pull it up by the roots (usually taboo with guides - I'm guessing this has a taproot and doesn't do well trimmed). I took a quite few, resigned to giving it a shot if they wanted me to eat it *even if it killed me).

There's only one recipe I know for greens. One. But it tastes so good that I've never bothered to learn any other.:) Most cooks know 10-20 ways to make anything, but I'm a bit picky about learning dishes I don't like instantly. What's the point, right?

Even Massoppu, my recipe, is only one of about 6 ways to make it. It's a poor woman's go-to for potgreens, any number of leafy greens can be cooked with tamarind, onion, garlic and lentils to go with rice or ragi/millet.

Anyway, full of enthusiasm I potted these greens with lentils, tomatoes, chillies and tamarind. Onions and garlic being out - broke my heart to lose those flavours. I made some ragi mudde to go with it. Initially it was mucilaginous but as the base developed, it looked good.

I was starved by this time, so I filled a steaming bowlful on ragi mudde ... and the whole thing was bitter!

I was deeply disappointed of course, and mad at the guides again, but puzzled. I asked loads of people for days why it might have become bitter -- by this time I'd forgotten the common weed!'

I didn't chuck it, but I didn't eat it either. I ate out, I cooked other simple stuff and just looked at this weird mess on and off. I didn't reheat it either, what was the point if I was  going to throw it anyway?

All this was 2 weeks ago. On and off I'd make up my mind to chuck the damned thing and free up the vessel, and take a lick to see if by some miracle it might have lost the bitterness and gotten tasty again. Of course it didn't. Puzzling!(cause guides are weird but never wrong. Narcs, you see.;)

The day before yesterday, someone asked me to name all the ingredients and I suddenly remembered the weed which might well have been bitter! All this time I'd been quite mad at them guides, of course, but then that's how they are. Still and affluent when they get their way, clamorous when they don't. Very hard to understand at all times!

I tasted it. Still bitter. And then I realised an extraordinary thing - the massoppu had stayed unspoilt for nearly 14 days! Without refrigeration, with a protein (lentils), tomatoes & green chillies! How could it even be possible?

New respect for my guides! What on earth stays unrefrigerated, unheated, unfermented, unspoilt and tastes as good (if bitter) for 14 bloody days??

So today I made a basmati rice to actually eat it. And I just did! It tastes like it did when I made it, went down ok, the bitterness actually fades in time and is replaced by a sweetness that lasts (I'm sure the cause is that my bitter tastebuds have atrophied!:).
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About 20 mins after eating, my mouth and lips got tingly and cool. So there is a ferment of sorts!

I was sure I'd die of an allergic reaction but that hasn't happened yet. The sweetness is persistent at the back of my mouth - feels amazing actually. My throat is slightly scratchy now nearly an hour later, but nothing else!

yay!! Now I can cook ONCE in 2 WEEKS, save gas, not worry about forgetting to reheat, not refrigerate!!:))

This is what I love about kimchi too - no cooking hassle. Salt and forget.:)

Bitterness is good for the liver according to ayurveda. Personally I'm not too fond of it - I have a sweet tooth and a lousy liver. My bile is all over my skin I think, and certainly in my urine. Just nowhere near my digestive system. lol

If I don't die by the time I finish it all (I'd made a lot so ... 3 days?) I'm going to make it again!

It's a common local weed and it does so much amazing food preservation! My guides are extraordinary. *muah*

If it does good for me, my dogs & cats will have to deal with bitterness too ... and better livers.:)

And I'll give up the farm tomatoes and chillies! (but even as I write this my tonsils are feeling tingly). It might be a kind of neem - that's a tree, but may be a related weed?- it's so bitter.

I'm also wondering if bitterness is astringent to the blood? A blood purifier of olden times?

Anyway, I'm grateful to my guides for guiding me away from all the plump and colourful veggies I used to love, that are full of water and expensive pesticides.

This weed is everywhere in my untouched garden. Untouched because I can't grow things with a black thumb. It grows on it's own! Thank you, strange imaginary extraordinary beings!!


I dreamt of empire

I dreamt of a hare standing up to two hunting dogs and fighting them off. I knew that there was a sage who asked two brothers to start an empire where that happened. Probably a solar reversal time?:)

I couldn't recall the name of the sage. Today on twitter I read an article on Vijaynagar Empire and found it: the sage was Vidhyasagar!!

Coincidence and maybe prophetic as Bangalore goes militant over cauvery water. Empire building time probably?