Wednesday, September 28, 2016

My bitters again

There's definitely a coolness in the mouth now after 3? days of aging. But the guides say it isn't yet ready to use but I've made a start anyway. The coolness is along the center of my upper palette, from the soft palate to the upper and lower lip in a band. A little on my tongue.

So a few thoughts.

The mold or ferment is white: could it be penicillin? I know it grows on bread, but I have to look up if it tolerates a bitter environment.

The interesting thing about this mold is that it digested plant matter and... protein!

It struck me that it was strange straight away in massoppu which is so full of dal that it promptly rots if not reheated twice a day. I've never seen dal preserved except in sugar syrup (Mysore pak, holige) or deepfried (all flours) or dried (sun-dried, freeze-dried snacks).

Most probiotics digest sugars (including Lactobacillus, I think).

The brilliance of this for me is that cats and dogs are primarily protein consumers till the last. If this can be cultured and added to their meat, it could really improve their nourishment.

And there's nothing else that would prevent rot in meat except salting, drying or frying.

Worth checking into the penicillin-mold.
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This morning not much mouth coolness in the morning and a disappointing smell of rot in the mixture. But there was a thin layer of dust-like mold on the top that I disturbed taking a spoonful.

I also drew out a little into a bowl and put a couple of drops of homeopathic mixture into it. By evening this mixture, bitters+homeopathy, is definitely cooler than the rest in the mouth!

One if my theories is that homeopathy actually works on bacteria and microorganisms, not us directly, which this might indicate.

Still, I'm not sure how to add it to the animals food yet. Put the homeopathy in in the morning and spray/splash it on after their food cools? Keep it overnight? Add the homeopathy to the liquid bitters as I make it or wait until after the mold begins?


Misread the guides

I just realised when I was talking to Ginger that I might have misread the guides intentions with the prana breath.

Since it so speeds up healing many times over, with no loss of energy, time or tiredness, they might have just been helping me since I've spread myself so thin, my spirit's worn out.

I thought they'd meant I don't need the Reiki symbols or distance healing. Maybe that's not it at all.

I did play more with the three youngest - gundi, raja and rani - today after that puzzling message in meditation. I haven't had the time in years, and always felt guilty for enjoying time with the little ones when so many needed help outside.

Prana breathing and castor oil have eased the time needed for homeopathy to kick in and heal.

I'm in better shape too mentally and emotionally from this deeper breathing.


Why, Guides?

I was chatting with G. yesterday and she said something about psychic ability bring heightened during geomagnetic storms which got me thinking. Sceps may actually have a psychic ability to gather power from humans around (rather than an an animal instinct as I've thought so far). They're usually show heightened skill at picking vics at the end of a geomagnetic storm and a weakness in clear  thinking at the CME.

Maybe if humans are antennas for energy transfer (1) or some such, it would explain the fondness the guides have for these creatures. They harvest energy, maybe all they need to learn us how to use it for higher good, even just humanist good?


Monday, September 26, 2016

Update of bitters

I stopped the Kali Iodate at day 30. It was remarkable for its phlegm inducing, ulcerating, hair thinning capacity.:)

But it did do something to my pineal gland. I had some horribly vivid nightmares, but also some amazingly clear meditations. I felt energy waves around my third eye for the first time in my life. It's still mixed into my tea leaf so I'll be doing it again ... when I have tea.

I stopped making iod tea to try the alkaline water with lime+pink salt. This was only so-so. I drank it for 3 days and realised the lime could be chewed and ate what I hadn't chucked.

That I feel could have been missing something. Good but nothing like my bitters experience! My throat is still cool in a patch a week after!! Remarkable.

So yesterday morning I made a batch from about 20 weeds (p. neruri) with their roots. They didn't want me to add anything so no other greens. Just Phyllanthus neruri billed and cooled and kept aside without straining.

My guides were all asking me to wait. Still are. But this morning I got impatient and had a spoonful from curiosity.

It was bitter alright but there was no coolness, nothing! After an hour or so there was a mild cooling somewhere high in my oesophagus above the thymus for a few mins, now some mild cool in the throat and mouth after nearly 12 hrs. Nothing like the rich and instant bloom of chill in the mouth from my bitter massoppu!!

Amazingly it's the ferment that we're looking for, probably even that snowy white mold that scared me so much that I finally chucked it. No wonder liv 52 is such a dull and boring tonic. It isn't aged!

Now I plan to take a spoonful a day until it comes to that exact ferment again.

Thank heavens for Bechamp or I'd never have been so bold! These plants must have microzyma that are exactly right to trigger the tonsils and thymus for healing, which is why it works on the liver, in diabetes, HIV and is anti inflammatory!

My Kali iod phlegmy cough is going. I have back of the throat soreness that hasn't become a cold yet. But the best part is how sweet the saliva becomes! The sweetness, probably from alkalinity, may resemble the DMT of the pineal secretion making it very prized by meditators.


A message

I had a good meditation with my friends this weekend. One was unable to conc in anything due to her online course on Plato and Socrates - nothing like rational philosophy to ruin you for mysticism and spirituality! It's thugness wipes out the ephemeral whispers like a narc wipes out his wife's personality.;)

In my session, my usual guide, the Dark Lady, didn't come. Instead the scene changed and it was a mountainside and a dark, chocolatey stag came down, nuzzled at my hand, nipped at a few branches of a fir and then invited me to run with it. I couldn't go because my body felt so heavy and tired. I asked if it wanted me to follow and it kept dashing between trees and teasing like a puppy or a kitten which wants to play. But I was thinking I was too slow now for this.

The stag had even antlers, rounded, like that one, the spirit of the world, Japanese myth in Miyazaki's movie - no markings, but two shades brown and dark chocolate fur.

At first I thought like a Petronius (lol! HarryPotter may have sunk deep;) but no glitter or heavy antlers.

Worldliness is like a tarpit, holding you down with grief and sadness and control. It gets harder and harder to move your spirit and body joyfully, enjoy work, take time to play. So either they're calling me home or they're telling me that I've got it. Now to shake it off, lighten up and play?

I've still got responsibilities ... will they ease up? More important, will I ease up and enjoy it again and understand the suffering around me as a process that isn't my responsibility to complete or cure. I'm hoping to have the sense, strength to let go. Guides really have time backwards, so not sure of when.


Left and right hands of healing

When Reiki is stronger in my left hand is when we're all cleansing? That would be a useful thing to know!

It's about twice as strong in my left today.


Uranium nit

Healing with uranium nit has been the greatest pleasure of 2016. I've saved 3-4, maybe 5  kittens with it - tippu, now rani, hyder & raja & gunda the kit a bit.

I get a tickling cough when I heal with it so it's a bone remedy and an immune system trigger.

You can see the kittens immediately change their behaviour from a mechanical struggle to breathe and live, to attempts to play, clean themselves, learn.

Rani who's looking microcephalous (no proper dome between her nose and ears) from only healing partially, still has the inflamed eye tissue. She eats as much as raja but nothing sticks to her ravaged frame while raja, his bones and muscle tissue develop in leaps and bounds.

I'd run out if uranium nit and bought it again today.

She's drawing it at 1m now and when I held it against her, instantly started purring. The bones of the back and her muscles are probably normally too painful but uranium nit made it possible for her to curl up and clean her hind foot and roll on her back! It's such a pleasure to watch them relax like normal kittens, not walk stiff jointed, bent over and rickety like little old women. But that's how disease ages even the very young.:(

I didn't give her a sniff or mouth dose, just Reiki'd it to reduce a chance of aggravation because of her fragility. Maybe when she's stronger ...

I fell asleep with her and raja cuddling into each other around the palm with u-nit and woke up with my tickling thymus cough.


Saturday, September 24, 2016

Cancer sceps and their vics

My guides won't like this piece because it's a mean one but ... I think I hurt some scep feelings by speculating that the underlying miasm for both them and their victims might be cancer.

It wasn't intentional - my blog's not for reading, just my  processing. I only posted the address on twitter to take the wind out of the Martian's sleuthing sails.

There's cancer in every home and I'm not looking to attach blame. If anything it might be related to the solar cycle and cosmic rays. For all I know.

But the outrage my posts created reminded me of a crazy time on IRC. Farrah Fawcett had just died of colon cancer and Ryan o'Neil was acting all bereaved and fake. I was on the scep science chan and a number of doms were on their high horse about her decision to quit chemo (after it went from stage 1 to 3 on chemo) and use naturopathy in the end. How alt med killed her, blah blah.

One unwary, innocent voice piped in with the obvious: that colon cancer is usually related to meat consumption and/or anal sex and Ryan was known to be a backdoor man.

There was a 5 min flabbergasted silence before the room exploded into action and word. The poor truthteller was kicked out, banned, and all kinds of scientific studies pulled out to prove colon cancer couldn't be connected to the anal sex that they all loved so much! Lol, men! No, it had to be the alt med that killed her obviously - just one more session of chemo could have had her fit as a fiddle and back in service of Man. (At least, one man who was just like them.:)

No one likes to think they contribute to the health problem of those around them, sceps least of all. Their denial is complete in every area of thought. But we all know how we can exhaust someone by talking her down, weaken a child with terror, drive people insane with revenge or office  politics. We all know how to cut people down to size - cancer size, that is.

In homeopathy, both diabetes and tuberculosis have to be present in the family history for cancer to develop according to Kent. It's a secondary combination of the weakness of tuberculosis (victims) and the excesses of diabetes (aggressors). It usually plays out in the children and their children's children, a second gen disease. You can see it happening as they grow up, how one dominates and takes more than his share, the other tries to give as much as she can.

And the victim isn't blameless either - they're drawn to the aggressors like iron filings to magnets (sometimes in the same proportion - comon, it's Ryan o'Neil!:). In a relationship it's the victim's place to call a halt when the s&m//dom/sub games go from a hot turn-on to painful resignation to actual physical damage and scar tissue. How's the dom to know when he's having the time of his life, pigging out!:p

The same is true with any normal narc-scep+vic relationship: if the victim feels tired and exhausted all the time it's really up to her to run, even crawl away, before a chronic and fatal drain. Don't make excuses for him, or be hoovered, or stay for the kids, because you're broke, have no will power ... just leave!

Actually run before! When they groom you, the first time they show contempt, nag you, strip you of self-respect, tell you that you hurt their feelings to shut you up. If not then, there's still time to break with your faithless liar during the rollercoaster of feeling excited sexiness to the gut-wrenching doldrums of fear for your sanity, ignored, uncertain and alone.

In fact I'll give both vics and sceps a simple way to tell: the first time you have a tummy upset after an argument, break up.

Say bye and save yourselves from the arrogant Prince Charmings, those knights in fake armor, you love to hate, you sooty, selfless, pitiful Cinderellas! No cancer miasm can raise its hydra head then for either.

(I'm putting in a little victim blame here to pacify some energy-vampires - you sceps were not the only cause!;)


"I’d lose some of the savagery. I don’t know how she got cancer; maybe some of it was me." - Ryan O'Neil, after her death. (1)

1. http://www.vanityfair.com/culture/2009/09/farrah-fawcett200909


Raja & Rani

The two gutter kittens of last week are now named. Merc cyan 10m probably saved the little Rani, uranium nit 12 did nicely for the inflammation around the eyes. But she had a terrible inflammation of the alimentary canal for 3 days from the Merc - just an aggravation I hope, not worsening.

They went from milk and curd to meat and fish rapidly because the girl stopped taking the bottle and would choke in it. (I was afraid of the pneumonia that kills force fed kittens.)

They ate too much like all fip kittens do. So for every new learning (licking, lapping, still no suckling but she's learnt to lave) her gut would inflame.

This time the guides stepped in and asked me to starve them. Instead of 4 hour feeds, I left them milk+curd and a bowl of water and didn't go back to see them for 12 hours today and only once in 8 hours yesterday.

If she survives, this might be the way forward. Even if they transition to solids, to return them to starvation/fasting until the body makes the necessary adjustment. Solids only once in 12 hours and very little.

Raja is blooming but he's fip too. His nervous system is crap and has shivering, periodic terrors. Crotalus 30 keeps his infected blood from poisoning him (and me - just a casual scratch would get itchy and infected).


Found the name of my bitter weed!

I asked a friend who's a whiz with plants and it's phyllanthus niruri. Ground with curd for jaundice, she said.

I think I'll go the decoction route since the guides think it's so awesome.

"Keelanelli is a major component of many popular liver tonics including Liv.-52."[1] Haha! Money saved!

Metabolic, liver, kidney, eyes [2]

Pity it isn't there in potency. [3]

But it's good for viral, bacterial, hepatitis, HIV to cancer -  seems to take care of everything. [4]

1. http://tamilnadu.com/health/phyllanthus-niruri.html

2. http://www.pinkandpink.com/2016/02/keezhanelli-keelanelli-medicinal-uses-health-benefits-bhumyamalaki.html?m=1

3.
http://drsrevathi.blogspot.in/2013/08/herbal-and-homeopathic-remedy-for-liver.html?m=1

4. http://hubpages.com/health/Medicinal-uses-of-Kizhar-Nelli


No courage

Ok my courage broke on seeing the white fungus. I mixed bitters in rice and had two mouthfuls, but I could only see long tentacles of hyphae deep in the food in my imagination.:)

I'll chuck it tomorrow. For sure.


Ah ha! Body acidity can be determined by ph!

So everyone uses ph strips on urine and saliva to check for a changing ph. http://www.livestrong.com/article/259786-how-to-increase-body-acidity/ <---these sceps were lying all the time!!


Friday, September 23, 2016

My bitters

Ok, it's 12, 13 days now since I made the weedy massoppu and there are 3 small patches of very white fungus! I still ate it this afternoon though (do not worry, I spooned off the white fungi!;). No change in taste and so cool around the throat and mouth!

But I'll keep it in mind that my energy saved from cooking lasts only two weeks. Got to cook twice a month at least (if I eat only this the rest of my life). Bummer.;)

Maybe this coolness is called 'Alkalinity' in this alkaline movement?

First I didn't know how hot my mouth to stomach region always is. I should have known, being a smoker and phlegm plaguing my bronchial tubes, not to mention loss of voice and burning in the oesophagus and diaphragm from eating wrong, acid risings after coffee, rotis, white bread, etc.

Kali iod made it prickle and tingle but not cold.

This bitter weed goes from chill to mild tingle cold, almost the opposite of an allergic reaction. The cold spreads to the lips and then there's a bated breath moment when it hits the tonsils (I'm terrified of the tonsils, our first line of immune defense! Very bad-tempered, grouchy gland that!:). The tonsils take about a half hour to make up their minds that it's not a terrorist threat, after which the coolness goes all the way to the bottom of the oesophagus after which I lose track of the hot/cold sensation.

It might be a coincidence but alkaline water (lime+pink salt overnight) does the cooling but so much milder.

This cold must be 'alkalinity' because is the opposite of the heat, prickle, burn of inflammation. Can we get inflamed when our tissues don't get hot? I don't think so... or maybe alkalinity is the effect on the tonsils? Over time it may make them more discriminating, prevent overreaction, & auto immune confusion.

I've been asking the guides how I'd make this for the animals. It will take them and me a few days to understand each other. (you always get the feeling that they sigh like they're talking to a retard or senile:)

So far they say I've got to use the root as well (I'd cut out and chucked the root and stem), boil the whole thing with other greens (tincture?) and keep it a few days (to ferment?) and spray it on the cooled food. So the leaves are basically just  material to ferment, not for fibre. It must be just the bitter water ferment that's good.


Another scep mechanism

Thanks to my idiot guides I found a new mechanism in the scep arsenal of energy hijack.

My guides, maybe all guides, can lead a moron into great trouble if one doesn't put the brakes on. I mean, look at what happened to Socrates and Jesus! I've told them repeatedly that I lack messiah-like qualities (esp guts, courage and certainty which I feel are essential;) so to concentrate on showing me how to save animals exclusively. After all, animals are to be saved from humans, I can't be saving the bad guys at the very same time as the good victims?! No logic. lol

This mechanism is called Grooming in narc psych language. All week I ignored the 'I'm so perfect' statements.

There's actually little one can say when someone says that beyond 'good'. I hear,"I'm such a good cook, my husband and kids are so healthy" from a diabetic and my knees go weak, my eyes glaze over and I say 'good' before I run. That lady has so far to go and I'm not Atlas. She's never going to go vegan in the next 10 lifetimes. Sorry, K, I love your good heart but I can't save your family's  islets!

Or maybe this is what they wanted to show me, these guides. A scep offering to help when I offered advice - say what? Hurt feelings over nothing much when it's really a hurt ego over not being held in high regard. Control in a different, confusing, manipulative way.

I'll admit to not being very attentive - my gut could be yelling and I ignore it until my stomach literally churns with warning.:)

There's a mantle of past successes at manipulation that is impossible to dent in these Teflon sceps. Everything hits that shield and reverses - is a comic book super-power, I tell you!

We work so hard to build the same shield with Reiki and a puff of ill will can knock it down sometimes. It's frustrating and deflating to see how little healers achieve for all the time and effort we expend. "Omg, what happened to the nice pyramid protection I gave you an hour ago? it's all gone, what did you do?" "oh, it made me feel so good I waved to my neighbor and she ignored me" Deflategate.

But this little piggy builds the strongest of them all with simple, classic duckback smoothness. Sceps have human energy transfer down to an art of surgical precision.;/


Another scep mechanism

Thanks to my idiot guides I found a new mechanism in the scep arsenal of energy hijack.

My guides, maybe all guides, can lead a moron into great trouble if one doesn't put the brakes on. I mean, look at what happened to Socrates and Jesus! I've told them repeatedly that I lack messiah-like qualities (esp guts, courage and certainty which I feel are essential;) so to concentrate on showing me how to save animals exclusively. After all, animals are to be saved from humans, I can't be saving the bad guys at the very same time as the good victims?! No logic. lol

This mechanism is called Grooming in narc psych language. All week I ignored the 'I'm so perfect' statements.

There's actually little one can say when someone says that beyond 'good'. I hear,"I'm such a good cook, my husband and kids are so healthy" from a diabetic and my knees go weak, my eyes glaze over and I say 'good' before I run. That lady has so far to go and I'm not Atlas. She's never going to go vegan in the next 10 lifetimes. Sorry, K, I love your good heart but I can't save your family's  islets!

Or maybe this is what they wanted to show me, these guides. A scep offering to help when I offered advice - say what? Hurt feelings over nothing much when it's really a hurt ego over not being held in high regard. Control in a different, confusing, manipulative way.

I'll admit to not being very attentive - my gut could be yelling and I ignore it until my stomach literally churns with warning.:)

There's a mantle of past successes at manipulation that is impossible to dent in these Teflon sceps. Everything hits that shield and reverses - is a comic book super-power, I tell you!

We work so hard to build the same shield with Reiki and a puff of ill will can knock it down sometimes. It's frustrating and deflating to see how little healers achieve for all the time and effort we expend. "Omg, what happened to the nice pyramid protection I gave you an hour ago? it's all gone, what did you do?" "oh, it made me feel so good I waved to my neighbor and she ignored me" Deflategate.

But this little piggy builds the strongest of them all with simple, classic duckback smoothness. Sceps have human energy transfer down to an art of surgical precision.;/


International peace day

A friend and I did a 5 min equinox meditation today to join the wave around the world. She's all into equinoxes and solstices, my guides were as usual excited to heal the planet, I love world movements I can join.

I gathered as many guides as I could and asked for peace for exploited animals (humans too penned & exploited by war). That no human can profit from their suffering as food, clothing, entertainment or ornament.

It was surprisingly powerful, my forehead chakra hummed and I could feel the draw from it.

I've never felt that before - so is that how intentions ought to  feel?!!:) Wow!

I'd given up on intention Reiki and healing because it really was a 'garbage in garbage out' thing. If my underlying intention was to show off, my stated intention would just get that little bit of twist that would make it a mixed blessing (like R losing his job when the intention was a raise; getting the raise at the next job after a hellish month without a proper work permit!); if my intention was from pity, most likely no effect; worry, worsens; greed, opposite effect (as in the case above). So very erratic and humbling.

This on the other hand felt like I was running along with a million souls for a good cause.


Unofficial blog name

I think I should change this blog's name to "Whatever the guides are into today and complaining about scep twits" because my guides aren't into homeopathy or reiki directly anymore. If i do their prana breathing, they point out a remedy or two. The Reiki 1  channel is about all they seem to use in healing in conjunction with the prana. No symbols (except the two masters attunement ones). They're not even into Bach flower remedies!

Strange healers, more than that, because they love twitter and sceps. Over the last week I've asked them many times if we shouldn't get off twitter since I'm off sceps, but they're like junkies, quite drunk on twitter feed.

Don't know what to do with them.


Thursday, September 22, 2016

Cancer - metabolic stuff

This is probably why banerji protocol can affect it! Mtdna at work!
http://articles.mercola.com/sites/articles/archive/2016/08/07/cancer-metabolic-disease.aspx?utm_source=twitter.com&utm_medium=referral&utm_content=twittermercola_ranart&utm_campaign=20160905_cancer-metabolic-disease


Calc phos

They're drawing Calc phos now during kp5.   Icy's getting small shocks through his body that are painful and electrical. I get those too as does Kenchu.

Some kind of oxidative stress that's wearing on the nerves. I remember Oldiefattipuppy, Laxmi etc getting the same.

Atmospheric? How can this be healed!:/


Healing Catabolic carbonate processes

I'm looking into two parts of the process:
* (prana) breath as one part of the catabolic carbon process through lungs
* alkalinity through liver and digestion (pancreas, some kidney?) for the bicarbonate part.